Friday, October 7, 2016


I have sometimes wondered if part of my issues (or a great deal of them) stem from the effect of toxic people, in my life.  One, in particular.

If I were to distance myself, from this person, would my stress level and anxiety and depressed days be fewer and far-between? I can't help but think the answer is yes.

But, what if I can't? What if that's easier said than done? What if this person senses my pulling away and is doing whatever it takes to bridge that gap, only to unintentionally burn said bridge, later? 

I feel trapped and powerless, at times, which makes me feel like I'm losing myself.  I hate that feeling.  I hate feeling like there isn't much I can do about that.  But, even more, so, I hate feeling incompetent because of how I'm treated by this person.  I hate feeling like I'm never good enough because I'm not living up to this person's unrealistic expectations.  I hate having to fight, all the dang time, for myself; for who I am.  I hate having to stand up for myself, to someone I should never have to stand up, to.  

What if I am losing myself?

What if my brain is being permanently affected?

Why does this have to be so hard?

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