Pretty much anything that's ailed me, over the years, have gotten these answers for a solution when I prayed about them:
Read my scriptures.
I seem to be self-sabotaging. I think we all sort of do this, once in a while. Maybe it's a habit... who knows?
Whatever the case, you'd think if God was telling me these things, over and over, again, that I would grab hold and just run with them.
Well... I haven't. I have a knack for thinking, "I need to do that", but then never actually do it.
I'm in a comfort zone. Uncomfortable as it may be, I'm here, just the same. This is what I know. If I commit to making my life better by doing these things, I might actually have to do something about it. I will be held accountable for my actions. I won't have excuses, anymore. Things might be different. I hope they would be, actually.
I came across something a friend told me about, a long time, ago. It's a supplement that's supposed to help with what ails me. It's non-medicinal. It means going off my meds to try it, if I'm thinking it will work. I want to talk to my doctor, about it. I would love to not have side-effects, but, going off meds like the ones I'm on, is scaryscaryscary. For many reasons. For them to work, they have to mess with your head. To go off of them - well - messes with your head. I'm not keen on being messed in the head anymore than I already am.
I think it's time for a change, though. Time to step up my game. Time to listen to God.
I'm a little hesitant. I don't want to fail. I don't want it to not work. I can't just dip my toe in the water, if I choose this - it's all or nothing. I can't do it, halfheartedly.
If you're reading this, and you're the praying type, I wouldn't mind if you sent one or two my way.