Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Finding My Way Back

"So, how do you do it? How do you get through my ugly periods?" - me

"How do I do it?  I just look past it and know that the real you is in there somewhere and will come back." - my husband


I've been going through a down period.  It's only been about a week, but it's been a very, very long week.  I know I always find my way, back, but this time it just seems like it won't happen.

I have triggers that bring me down... I need to start looking for triggers that bring me back, up.

I wish I could do this without medication.  Medication is so meddlesome.  I almost want to see what happens if I go off it.



Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Night and Day

Last week, I cleaned and cleaned and cleaned.  I vacuumed the couch, kind of cleaned.

This week? It's all I can do to get dressed.  Showering is just something I can't seem to fit into my schedule.  I feel blah... like not doing anything... like not wanting to be touched or talk to anyone or make dinner or not sleep...

I'm ready for manic mode, again.  I have two more bathrooms to clean.