I want to let those who read this to know something.
I don't do this for attention. I do this so others can maybe understand a little why I do some things I do. I do this because writing it out, helps.
I do NOT want people to feel sorry for me. I hate sounding like I'm making excuses, though. I hate feeling like I have to tell people I've let down it's not my fault. It's my brain's. So, I usually don't tell people. I just apologize and keep moving forward.
I generally can't stand it when people constantly talk about their mental issues. It almost seems like they're glad they have them or they like people saying, Oh, you poor thing. Honestly, I would really rather no one know this about me. I don't make it known when I've created another post, like I do my other two blogs.
I feel like, in saying these things, I AM seeking attention. I feel slightly hypocritical for saying I don't like it when people talk about themselves and draw attention to their situations. Here I am, posting about my inner workings - the ugly ones, anyway. I guess if you want to know why I do this, go to the very first post. I'm actually going to go read it, myself, to remember what it is I even said. haha
Anyway. There it is. I like that nobody comments. I like that there are only a few people who read this. I would even prefer it if they were people I don't know. I know this sounds lame; it sounds lame to me. I just wanted to let people know I'm well aware of the possible assumptions that people could make (because I'm likely one of those types of people). Think what you will, of course, but know that I mostly do this for myself.